i'll write you just to let you know that I'm alright

i'm not mad. i'm just confused.really confused.i know i shouldn't be paranoid about something trivial like this but i just can't help it.kaya nga i need an explanation. this has been bothering me for quite sometime na and hanggang ngayon it still puzzles me.

"it's hard to pretend that you already let go of someone just to mask the pain that's within you. especially when that someone is the only reason why you still hold on for the true meaning of love and why you are still hopeful that someday,somewhere, you will find the true meaning of happiness." - from someone who keeps on holding on to someone who had already let go

grabe.what do you mean ba?!irita ka.why can't you just tell it to me directly?dinadaan mo pa sa quote.

hahaha.
you're telling me to move on.and that you're the only reason why i believe in love.
and may pahabol pa:
-from someone who keeps on holding on to someone who had already let go
tsss...feeling mo naman.pwede namang magyabang pero hindi naman sana umabot sa ganyang level.iba ka talaga.

well fine, oo na.galit ako.kasi naman.you don't have any right to tell me to "move on" because i'm asking for your advice.isn't it that giving unsolicited advice is considered unethical?

oh well.that's life.may mga kupal talaga sa mundo.and i can't change that.

pag hindi na nakakatawa

i can handle friendly asaran and hiritan.pero it's beginning to be more and more irritating.

lagi na lang un ang napapansin nila.guys please.kung kayo kaya ang inaasar sa kagaya nya,hindi ba kayo maasar?before i can still laugh about it pero now it's becoming a little bit harder to just 'grin and bear it'.below the belt na kasi minsan.and most of the things that i do,lagi nilang kino-connect sa taong un.i hate it.

honsetly,may mga biro talagang hindi ko na ma-take.as in.sige na pikon na ako.pero hindi naman ako napipikon before.ngayon lang.nauubos na kasi pasensya ko eh.

pinapalampas ko ung mga "uyy kc..."pero ung palitan mo ung last name ko at gawing last name nya?!who the hell are you to do that?!oo sige,joke un.pero bigyan mo naman ng dignity ang pangalan ko kasi i take care and i take pride of my name.hindi lang kasi ang inasar mo eh,buong family ko.i just can't take that insult.sige,asarin mo na ako,pero wag mo naman idamay ang buong fabella clan.

and another thing.you keep on telling me na matakaw ako,na mataba ako.SORRY NA HA.hindi kasi ako sexy eh.ilang beses ko na sinabi sayo na sensitive ako pag dating sa weight ko pero you dont care.you will even text me out of nowhere ng "takaw!".oo na sige na chubby na ako.do you have to keep on pointing that out to me?oo sige,asaran.pero sinabihan na kita before.my weight has always been an issue to me.below the belt naman un,pare.

asarin mo na ako ng kahit ano.kahit pa kay jr.wag mo lang idamay ang family name ko at ang weight ko.naubos na kasi pasensya ko eh.and dont treat me as if galing din akong gh because i'm not.i can't handle that kind of asaran.napipikon din naman ako.

spider pig!hahaha benta.

watched the simpson movie with ej, lia (grabe after 3 years!),enzo,ark, gelo,lloyd,jomar,oyo,ryan and posadas.hahaha.(almost) all boys ang kasama ko!hehe.super fun!

anyway, i'm so tired to blog.basta,bottomline is i had fun today.

vavay :)

i'd still rather be green than be blue

wattaday!
grabe.3 points!!3 freakin' points!argh!!di bale,babawi tyo la salle!we will not let them have the last laugh.they may mock us now but in the end it will be our victory.hahaha naks.ang deep!

anyway,i don't want to blog about the outcome of the game,madidisappoint lang ako.pero the experience was definitely something!iba talaga!cheer kung cheer!school spirit to the highest level.

ang saya manood.the best.i still can't get over!hahaha.kaya i strongly recommend na manood kyo ng live!iba ang game pag live.mas feel mo.hahaha.




D-LS-U!animo la salle!

must fight temptation!

online sya
online ako
matagal na ung last conversation namin
in short, gusto ko syang kausapin

pero no!
must resist the urge!haha
argh.shit.

pag kinauap ko,ano naman sasabihin ko?
"hi" "hello" "how are you?"
hahaha parang walang nangyari ah
parang hindi ko sinabi sa sarili ko na ayoko na ah

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
gusto ko talagaaaa
pero wag naaaa

haay.the voices in my head are fighting one another.haha.in short, nababaliw na ako.

pottermania

i think i was 13 when my tito cesear sent me the complete 4 books of harry potter.and that was the very first time i that i got exposed to hogwarts and all the wizardry stuff in the book.and after i read all four, i lost interest.and thank god i did.

i just can't see the logic of falling in line and buying a very expensive book (1,500 peysoses!maygawd!) that is all about magic.kung 13 years old ka siguro,ok lang.pero kung matanda ka na,it's time to grow up!

then the latest book costs 1500 pesos!my god!i could buy a lot of things with that money.if i have that amount of money,i will spend it more wisely.wisely meaning a pair of jeans or a top or a bag or a pair of lime-green havs or a gorgeous long necklace from cru...and the list goes on and on.and at least nasasusuot ko ung mga un!

and i just can't stand people (college kids to be exact) talking about the book, the movie or anything under the potter sun.basta.there's something annoying whenever they talk about harry potter.sa una ok pa eh,pero nung tumagal na,nakakarindi na.all i hear is harry potter.kasuka na.

pero i still respect their thing for harry potter.kanya-kanyang trip lang siguro yan.and to be fair, nagustuhan ko din naman ung harry potter dati.

Happy Birthday Jose Miguel Dumaual!!

running out of ideas

i have a question: if you are a a male having sex with males, what kind of advertisement will make you use a condom?

craap!i can't think of a poster that will make gays (no offense meant) use condom when they have sex. i'm making this for our project in cosca. and i can't think of anything creative at this moment.

the draft that i made is inspired by the absolut vodka ads. pero ms. myrna said that our output should be appealing to our audience, who are males having sex with males and who are living in the urban areas.in short, my adbsolut vodka-inspired ad didn't make the cut.and now me and melai have to make a new one out of scratch.and this is due this week.

it irritates me sooo much because now that i have the time to make a poster, my creativity isn't working.i planned to make this digi-art poster ala inksurge pero that idea is waaay above my non-existing drawing skill.heck, i can't even draw a rainbow.pano naman kasi i can't draw a line even if i'm using the line tool (photoshop chuva). and i'm also thinking of making a poster that uses the gay lingo.kung hindi pa yan maka-catch ng attention ewan ko na lang.pero it might be so gay naman and they won't take it seriously.and i really would want to make a good output kasi minsan na nga lang ako tumulong sa society hindi ko pa aayusin.

BR, STG's official pet, is dying.or is probably dead.nakakaawa.what a waste.sana pinamigay na lang namin sa bata para nakapagpasaya pa kami ng tao.sad.i don't like seeing pets dying.parang they are so helpless.they can't even voice out their feelings.parang they're just there,nagihintay ng hatol.

i remember my first pet rabbit.grabe,kinain sya ng pusa ng kapitbahay.and i cried talaga!the whole day!i was about 10 years na siguro that time.imagine, 3 days pa lang namatay na!if only our dogs wouldn't die and they will grow old with us.alam mo un, it's like they're part of the family na.and just thinking about their death in the future scares me.

oh well.death is natural.we're all gonna die someday.

monday is ticket day

haaay.kagabi i already made up my mind that i will not watch the game on thursday anymore kasi hassle pa ung pauwi ko.pero gusto ko tlga eh.so this morning, instead of waking up a little late kasi free cut sa filkomu,i woke up my 6am to go to school and buy a ticket.good thing nandun na sila tat earlier pa (grabe 6:30!) and sumingit na lang ako when i arrived around 8:30..pero at least nung sumingit ako konti pa lang tao (haha defensive).

so after almost 2 hours of waiting,nakakuha diiiin!haha.grabe kanina nung nag-didistribute na ng tickets.KAGULO tlga!as in there were shouting (c/o "rene"), pushing and of course, singitan.pinoy nga naman oh!

so there.after all the drama.we all have tickets (si mig nanlibre) yey!
and oh,nag-class din pala kami.haha.i forgot. vavay :)