blurry

i need glasses and i have to be mean.yes.

the glasses are obviously for my eyes.grabe i never thought na magiging malabo mata ko kasi eversince i was a kid i have 20/20 vision.pero now, i can't see what i'm typing on the screen.waah ayoko mabulag.haha.funny thing is that back in grade school i would fake the eye chart during physical exams in the clinic para i could wear glasses.haha.pero ngayon i'm kinda scared.so my new motto: TAKE CARE OF YOUR 20/20 VISION BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE!

i have to mean.to him.that's my new thing.i can't love him kaya all i can do is to hate him.i don't hate him because of what happened.i just have to hate him para mawala na ung feelings ko.that's the only way i can do it.extremes kasi ako eh.either i love you or i hate you.and he left me no choice.and i don't think he really care whether i hate him.he doesn't care.and i don't care either (naks)

so un.that's all :)

i know you have seen them.maybe you're even one of them.or maybe, you're one of those people who gets so annoyed by them.

i'm talking about people (specifically:young college kids) who would pose for the camera while chugging down a bottle of beer of puffing a stick of cigarette.it's like saying "we're in college!we're free to drink booze! and we want the entire world to know that!"

ok we get it.you don't have to blantly pose with that alcholic drink in your hand to prove that you are indeed a "mature individual".it's not that i'm against drinking or smoking. not at all.i myself wind down with a (very very controlled) amount of liqour. but i just don't understand the significance of posing with the ultimate proof of maturity.i find that very childish.haha it's funny because the reason why they do that is to show everyone that they are no longer kids but in fact, they look like kids who can't wait to grow up.

i'll write you just to let you know that I'm alright

i'm not mad. i'm just confused.really confused.i know i shouldn't be paranoid about something trivial like this but i just can't help it.kaya nga i need an explanation. this has been bothering me for quite sometime na and hanggang ngayon it still puzzles me.

"it's hard to pretend that you already let go of someone just to mask the pain that's within you. especially when that someone is the only reason why you still hold on for the true meaning of love and why you are still hopeful that someday,somewhere, you will find the true meaning of happiness." - from someone who keeps on holding on to someone who had already let go

grabe.what do you mean ba?!irita ka.why can't you just tell it to me directly?dinadaan mo pa sa quote.

hahaha.
you're telling me to move on.and that you're the only reason why i believe in love.
and may pahabol pa:
-from someone who keeps on holding on to someone who had already let go
tsss...feeling mo naman.pwede namang magyabang pero hindi naman sana umabot sa ganyang level.iba ka talaga.

well fine, oo na.galit ako.kasi naman.you don't have any right to tell me to "move on" because i'm asking for your advice.isn't it that giving unsolicited advice is considered unethical?

oh well.that's life.may mga kupal talaga sa mundo.and i can't change that.

pag hindi na nakakatawa

i can handle friendly asaran and hiritan.pero it's beginning to be more and more irritating.

lagi na lang un ang napapansin nila.guys please.kung kayo kaya ang inaasar sa kagaya nya,hindi ba kayo maasar?before i can still laugh about it pero now it's becoming a little bit harder to just 'grin and bear it'.below the belt na kasi minsan.and most of the things that i do,lagi nilang kino-connect sa taong un.i hate it.

honsetly,may mga biro talagang hindi ko na ma-take.as in.sige na pikon na ako.pero hindi naman ako napipikon before.ngayon lang.nauubos na kasi pasensya ko eh.

pinapalampas ko ung mga "uyy kc..."pero ung palitan mo ung last name ko at gawing last name nya?!who the hell are you to do that?!oo sige,joke un.pero bigyan mo naman ng dignity ang pangalan ko kasi i take care and i take pride of my name.hindi lang kasi ang inasar mo eh,buong family ko.i just can't take that insult.sige,asarin mo na ako,pero wag mo naman idamay ang buong fabella clan.

and another thing.you keep on telling me na matakaw ako,na mataba ako.SORRY NA HA.hindi kasi ako sexy eh.ilang beses ko na sinabi sayo na sensitive ako pag dating sa weight ko pero you dont care.you will even text me out of nowhere ng "takaw!".oo na sige na chubby na ako.do you have to keep on pointing that out to me?oo sige,asaran.pero sinabihan na kita before.my weight has always been an issue to me.below the belt naman un,pare.

asarin mo na ako ng kahit ano.kahit pa kay jr.wag mo lang idamay ang family name ko at ang weight ko.naubos na kasi pasensya ko eh.and dont treat me as if galing din akong gh because i'm not.i can't handle that kind of asaran.napipikon din naman ako.

spider pig!hahaha benta.

watched the simpson movie with ej, lia (grabe after 3 years!),enzo,ark, gelo,lloyd,jomar,oyo,ryan and posadas.hahaha.(almost) all boys ang kasama ko!hehe.super fun!

anyway, i'm so tired to blog.basta,bottomline is i had fun today.

vavay :)

i'd still rather be green than be blue

wattaday!
grabe.3 points!!3 freakin' points!argh!!di bale,babawi tyo la salle!we will not let them have the last laugh.they may mock us now but in the end it will be our victory.hahaha naks.ang deep!

anyway,i don't want to blog about the outcome of the game,madidisappoint lang ako.pero the experience was definitely something!iba talaga!cheer kung cheer!school spirit to the highest level.

ang saya manood.the best.i still can't get over!hahaha.kaya i strongly recommend na manood kyo ng live!iba ang game pag live.mas feel mo.hahaha.




D-LS-U!animo la salle!

must fight temptation!

online sya
online ako
matagal na ung last conversation namin
in short, gusto ko syang kausapin

pero no!
must resist the urge!haha
argh.shit.

pag kinauap ko,ano naman sasabihin ko?
"hi" "hello" "how are you?"
hahaha parang walang nangyari ah
parang hindi ko sinabi sa sarili ko na ayoko na ah

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala
gusto ko talagaaaa
pero wag naaaa

haay.the voices in my head are fighting one another.haha.in short, nababaliw na ako.